I’m done. I’m just done. I can’t handle any of this anymore. I’m not cut out for working/living in Toronto. I’m too nice and I don’t want to let that go. It’s the one good thing about me. After 3 semesters in this program with one left I have failed because of both me working too hard, and someone being so headstrong about a simple decision. This person has said that I should not be in this program because I am poor and now that they have ability to let me fail they are going through with it. And there is nothing the professor/program co-ordinator can do.
I have worked very hard to be where I am today and this point it’s no where. I’m 20,000$ in debt and I’m not even 20. I’ve been written up at work several times and I’ve been fired and rehired once. I missed out on a internship of a life time and lost what little friends I did have just to be here. Which is no where.
I know part of it is my fault but not because I choose to live like this. It was chosen for me before I was born. And I’ve worked hard to escape that life. Leaving everything behind just to go to school here. Now I’ve failed and I just don’t know what to do.